Sorry Its Long
i found out i was pregnant at 1-2 weeks it was a shock but i was soo happy so so happy
but somehow i knew something wasnt right that it all wouldnt work out that something would go wrong when i was 5-6 weeks i had spotting this went on untill i was about 10 weeks had so many scans n tests and everything was ok had my 12 week scan saw her movin around and all her tests wer healthy bleedin was long gone i was told not to worry as much now things wer looking good at 16 weeks i couldnt wait i had to kno was she a boy or a girl we went private and found out i was so happy i wanted a little princess started feeling a little movement about 18 weeks i felt her kickin ad moving was the best feeling in the world started gettin a few stretch marks
but i didnt mind because it was worth it all started buyin more and more even looked at prams she nearly had everythin she needed even her daddys family started gettin exited this was after they begged me to get rid :@ see her daddy wasnt a nice man! constantly saying upsettin things and bein rather aggesive! anyway
25th august 21 weeks pregnant with my little angel walkin around town bought a few baby things preatty dresses with preatty headbands lovely they was and i had the sudden erge to go to wee
so off i went there was blood not alot but there was a little
oh god i thought not again i thought that had all stopped now! grr went back found the girls they sed aww rachel its normal stop panicking phoned my midwife couldnt get hold of her nothing new there though never could
so i called the hospital they told me to come up so off i went sat there for 4 hours they checked my cervix and they was closed heard my lil laceys heartbeat goin nice and strong they sed everythin is ok andd sent me home wednesday mornin woke up with a very big pain went to toilet it dissaperd was fine all day Thursday mornin woke up and neeeded the toilet bad stood up and all water a blood just burst out i screamed out for my partner rememberin he wasnt there (wen ever was he) my mum came running in she loooked frightend i was cryin she was cryin my dad was panicing mum called the hosp they sed for me to go straight there they checked me again the cervix was shut and the sed they wanted to keep me in over night so i could rest because id been under a lot of stress with my partner it wasnt good all day they came and checked me sed everythin was fine i went to sleep at around 10.30 on the thursday nyt onli to be woken by all the babys coming into the ward it wasnt wat i wannted to here coz deep down i knew lacey wouldnt make it i just knew i drifted back off untill around 4am wen i woke in so much pain my buzzer didnt work i was callin and noone herd me i got out of bed and tryed my hardest to walk eventually someone came and gave me some pethadeen that made me go off to sleep 8am came and the pain was worse really worse!! they got a nurse in to me they called for a doctor they examined me all the time i could feel lacey kicking and movin the doctor just looked at me and sed im so sorry ! so sorry i was screamin cryin sayin no lacey please hold on not now ! they sed we cant save her! we are takin u to delivery i rang her dad he didnt wanna kno he basiccly sed ill be there wen i am ther i rememeber thinkin right rachel you can do this! at the same time beggin god to not let lacey come now please lacey hold on i kept sayin i was givin gas and air and morfeen my mum arrived and the contractions got closer and closer whys this happenin please do somthing i sed to the nurse she sed theres nothing i can do sweetheart she was lovely
then i had the sudden erge to push the nurse sed when your ready do it so i pushed and one push she came at 9.48 my beautifull little girl was born weighin 12oz the most beautifull baby i had ever seen i held her right up untill 9pm wen i went home and came back the next day she was dressed in a litte pink dress looking beatifull i named her lacey the chaplin came and she baptised her all her family came to meet her ! well al the family from my side did finally her dad turned up he helled her for a little while had a lil tear for her .... we burred her she had the lovliest funeral i made them put pink silk instead of white in her coffin and her little teddy went with her
ill never forget my little girl and no baby will replace her
that was laceys story
sorry it was so long
rip lacey mummy loves you we will meet again one day xxxxx
Laceys Story 
for you.. Thanks for sharing your story..
A Bubba thats here to stay! 
27/3/99 (13wks)
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