Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss - October 2009

[Matthew's Mum]

Evening all,Craftymummy-hope your feeling better tonight...snugglebean-good luck.

[ferrals4]

Murraycod- What a post you must have had cramp's in your finger's by the time you finished typing anyway good luck for monday.

Craftymummuy-it's hard when people around you tell you they are pregnant it rip's at the heart string's my best friend and HORRIBLE SIL and another close friend are all due for there babie's in 2 week's all around the 20th to the 23rd and i pretend i am happy and excited for them but deep down i don't even want a phone call when the babie's are born i am coping well now with the loss of abbi but i am scared when the phone call's come it will be like a band aid being ripped off and all the pain will come back i don't need that right now i wish i could tell people please no pregnant women around me and no birth anouncement's then i would be fine but no such luck.

Loopylouie-MEN!!! they winge when they don't get it enough and when we say we need more on these day's and we try to get as much BD action in as possible they are to tired or can't perform us women can't win.

Snugglybean-I never had much luck with my temp's they alway's went up after i ov and i never got the dip just before so i alway's used opk's and i get ov pain so i'm not much help to you.

AFM-Well AF is here so i go for blood test monday morning and the PGD IVF nurse will ring me and tell me what dose to start jabbing monday night thank god i'm not working monday.

[craftymummy9]

Evening Ladies

Thanks for all your messages it really helps to know someone else knows how Ifeel !
Murraycod nearly Monday so you get the go ahead ,
Matthews mum thanks for thinking of me I am a bit better today but kept dreaming last night about my friends BFP showing in my face and her laughing at me !
Anyhow went out and bought some new knitting yarn and pattern to get started on a new set with jacket, bootees and blanket . Feel much better now ( Best make sure its a winter baby )
Loubee thanks for your reply will have to keep in touch feel free to PM me anytime you feeling sad and need a boost ! Its early days for you and Im still suffering !
Everyone else this is the month I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES lots of BFPs comming !
Have a good evening and those who are BDing hope the men are fit and not tooo tired !
TO ALL THIS MONTH !

[scarypinkfairy]

craftymummy9 and loubee i am in the middle of you in kwinana and i emigrated from uk in october 2006 how strange is that lol i have no family here either which makes it really difficult sometimes. i have been on the phone to my mom a lot recently though, so at least that is something.

snugglybean, your cycle does seem strange. hope things work out for you.

afm, went out with friends visiting from the uk last night but they didn't know what had happened. we had something to eat then went for a drink. i had one drink but had to leave early as i had really bad stomach pains. felt a bit bad leaving them so early.

[Matthew's Mum]

Hello everyone,Ferrals-not long now,hope you don't find the jabbing to bad...Craftmummy-You're bub will be warm &cuddly with all this lovely knitting your doing...Scarypinkfairy-Don't feel bad about leaving early,you need to look after yourself,your body has been/going through a draining time emotionally & physically..

[murraycod]

Snugglybean, hope you get some positive news tomorrow, I know youre not exactly TTC ATM, but these things seem to happen when youre not expecting them. Wish you all the best no matter the result though XX

Matthew'sMum whats happening you still don't have AF. Are you usually regular???

Ferrals I will be thinking of you tomorrow hun! Im excited for you so much! Interested to hear what programme you will be started on with your injections, will be reading closely!!!

Hope everyone had a nice weekend, I worked all weekend but now have 4 days off, gotta love nursing!!!!! I only work 7days a fortnight now that we are doing the IUI rollercoaster, and I still find it hard to juggle days off when needed. No month is the same.

Wish me luck everyone for tomorrow's scan, I think I'm gunna need it
Scenario 1 Cancelled cycle too many eggs growing.
Scenario 2 Eggs not growing enough...more needles and scans
Scenario 3 Got nice big juicy egg that's ready to be fertilised!!!!!

I hope it's scenario 3. I will be gutted ift it's no 1........it will be so much worse than getting AF

Sorry 'alotabout ' me, I'm a touch stressed. XXXX

[craftymummy9]

Hi everyone,
Hope your weekend was nice and relaxing and had time to reflect on the coming week.
Those who have been BDing fingers crossed for you
Those who have been taking injections lets hope the eggs are really juicy and ready waiting for the little swimmers,
Murraycod I hope its number number 3 senario for you I have my fingers crossed this is the month for you ,
Matthews mum whats happening with you ? you haven't said much about yourself always thinking of everyone else bless you !
Scarypinkfairy Wow its a small world you are nearly a neighbour, Do hope you get sorted soon those pains are not funny and when it spoils and evening out just makes you remember the MC even more ! feel free to PM me if you want to I am here to listen and give any help I can,
Loubee hope your coping ok its still early days, Elsielouise hope your feeling ok I know your away but hopefully you can get chance to look in on us
AFM I have had a good day today looking forward instead of backwards and awaiting the posty with my little OP sticks. as don't know where I am with my cycle but been BDing anyways just incase every 3rd day, sure is hard work
Bought a lovely rose and planted it in the garden to remind me of my feels so good like a new begining for me Will water it and watch it bloom !

Everyone I forgot SORRY

[Matthew's Mum]

Evening all,Murraycod-Fingers crossed for tomorrow ,hope you can manage some sleep tonight...Craftymummy-Your rose bush is a lovely way of remembering,as for me i'm on cycle day 2,af is still coming late(34 days this time)but at least she's here,once i get a bfn and she hasn't arrived i worry it may have been my last cycle .I go to doc on thurs see what the plan is from here i think he may up clomid dose going to ask about getting scans throughout this cycle to see if that helps me catch that egg.

[murraycod]

Matthew'sMum good luck for Thursady hun, you deserve all of the bestest news possible X You spend so much effort in looking after us here and making sure we are ok, we appreciate it very very much.

Craftymummy you got me in the spirit! I went to the Planitarium and got 6 gorgeouse rose bushes to revamp my front garden, but one i got a different colour to all the rest. My special one X

Well ladies I'm back from my scan............
Scenario no 2. Still have 5 eggs haunting me, and they have only grown to 13mm, instead of 1 or 2 at 20mm.
Also saw an extra 6 smaller ones on my left ovary and 4 extra smaller ones on my right. FS Nurse tells me that with this scan, and my past ones, it looks like I may have PCOS.
We then had a chat to my FS, they all think that this is the case, and that IUI would be extremely difficult to succeed in producing a pregnancy as we will be only guessing each month the precise time do insemination ect. Might as well be just having sex and keeping the $1100 in my bank account.
So anyway, I will have more inj of Puregon for the newx 3 nights, have anoth scan Thursday. If a miracle has occured and 2 eggs have grown to atleast 19mm I will have the IUI anyway.
If too many have grown, or none have grown enough, the cycle will be cancelled and will be out of pocket $900 for nothing.

So girls if I get a chance do go ahead, it will be our last try at IUI.
Have booked IVF for middle January.
FS thinks I will have no problems with IVF succeeding.

I'm feeling sad about all of this, but I don't feel devistated like I thaught I was going too.

Will dust myself off once again and try again in January. Im still smiling ATM.....

[snugglybean]

Muz cod! That is sad news, but you never know, this iui could still work, and if not, toot toot for the January train! Lots of girls on here seem to have success with seeing naturopaths for PCOS. I have a friend in Melbourne who is a TCM practitioner that used to treat it a lot. I hope you have some success soon!

Thanks for your wonderful support - I just about bit through my lip all weekend worrying about BT results, but it's still zero. Which is good because by 9am this morning I had convinced myself it was molar regrowth! Clinic nurse and I had a good chat about it, she was so supportive, and gave me the offical OK to ttc in Japan if we want to (as long as Dec result is zero)
Cycle still stupidly long. Don't know what that's about. Have taken some steroid meds for asthma recently, maybe they have mucked around with it? So I'm just sitting around waiting for AF.

Did a 130km bike ride yesterday and man do my girly bits HURT!

Hope you're all well. M'sM, I hope you do catch that egg!

[ferrals4]

Bad new's i got a phone call from the pgd nurse i can't start this month my estrogen level's are to high they are supose to be between 100-150 mine are over 300 which they said is no good i have to have a repeat blood test tomorrow and if it's dropped a bit they will put me one the pill and i can start in nov if it's higher again i have to wait for my next AF then go on the pill in nov and wait until dec to start i am devastated balling my eye's out.

[Matthew's Mum]

Evening everyone,Murraycod-your garden sounds beautiful,fingers stilled crossed for this month,sounds like there is still hope.I have pcos,was diagnosed about 8 months ago,fertility specialist put me on metformin tablets...Snugglebean-I might look into seeing naturopath for my pcos as metformin gives me a lot of tummy problems,thanks for the idea.Hope af comes soon for you long cycles are frustrating...Ferrals-sorry about your levels getting in the way of your plans for this month,hope they go down so Nov is all steam ahead.

[murraycod]

Oh Ferrals my darling I'm so sorry, I know how long youv'e been waiting....days go by slow enough.
That is really sad news, I hope you are ok, I hope your levels drop by next month for you to start XxX

Snuggly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Laugh'n MAO about your 'Girly Bits"!!!!
Let's hope the fertility in the japanese water is a lot stronger than here!!XX
What a holiday, lucky girl!..................
.................................................. .................................................. .................................. DH want's to know what I'm laughing at...don't worry I won't say!!!!

[murraycod]

Thanks Matt's Mum, I hope that you too are soldiering on ok XX

............................... girly bits hey........didn't you have a fluffy seat cover or sumth'n??!!

[ferrals4]

Well i can't cry anymore my eye's are horrid! i rang the pgd nurse to get some answer's and all she could tell my was that a high estrogen level is a sign that i have a lead follicle to early it would have started to grow when af started so that mean's i would ovulate early and all my other follicle's would not have time to catch up and being that we need as many follicle's as possible to get lot's of egg's to test there is no point so i alway's ovulate early like day 11 so we need to do somthing about my estrogen i never thought being to fertile to early would be a problem.

Anyway sorry to not do personal's i will come back later when i feel up to it.

[murraycod]

Ferrals hun I'm so sorry,
Im glad at least they know what the problem is, so they should sort it out for next month. I too would be devastated having a cycle cancelled before it started. That really sucks big time.
Know that we are all praying for the best result for you, take care of yourself hun XX

[maddison]

Ferrals i am so sorry you are having a set back. I hope they get everything in order for you for next month and there is no more waiting. You are an amazingly strong woman. This wont stop you get to your goal of having a beautiful healthy baby.

[ferrals4]

just got result's estrogen is still high progesterone is low but my FSH is normal at 8 so at least that is good the FS is going to ring me after 4 to talk about what could be the problem but i'm out this month so i'm off to have a cry and i was told it won't effect our natrual fertility just no good for ivf i will let you know what the FS say's.