Trying to Conceive After Miscarriage/Loss August/September 2009

[SammyP]

Eliselouise - what a hard day you've had. Glad to hear a little retail therapy helps.

I keep spending money too as I find it helps for a little bit. Only, I never seem to spend it on myself, it's all on DD, whether she needs it or not. Everything I buy for her lately I know in my heart is for someone else who can't be here. It's naughty, but she's learning to talk and I made her say the name we chose for a girl or a boy just to see how it would sound when she said it.

The other thing I can't stop doing is eating. I have put on 5kg since the first miscarriage in May. I just eat all day long and I suspended my gym membership because I couldn't find the enthusiasm to work out. That must end on Monday though as I have to force myself to get fit and lose weight to improve my chances of conceiving.

Also, I find that my body has become like an old ship which creaks and groans all the time. I never noticed ovulation when I was younger and now its all giving off little pains and aches, mostly on the RH side.

[eliselouise85]

The other thing I can't stop doing is eating. I have put on 5kg since the first miscarriage in May. I just eat all day long

Sammy i know exactly what that is like, i am feeling so fat at the moment as well, i am still walking most days but am just eating junk. I keep telling myself it has to stop but cant bring myself to, its so hard.

[starangelk]

Hi everyone, I have been laying low for a few days.

I have missed alot of chatting in this thread but have just been back and read through it all. Big hugs for all of you.........

No personals today because I have missed so much but will be back over the next few days to chat to you all.

Feel a bit like I am walking around in a fog sometimes, putting on a happy and brave face is exhausting. Did a bit of shopping this week, a few new tops and things. It's even more depressing though as I keep thinking how just a few weeks ago I soooo wasn't shopping, knowing that it was silly to buy new clothes when they weren't supposed to fit me for long. *sigh* Thanks for reading this, it just feels like no one else understands how I am feeling.

[SammyP]

StarangelK - I know what you mean about clothes. I bought a new top for a BBQ but I made sure it would suit a pregnancy as well just in case. I did look over a slinky dress and think "Maybe I could by this as my inspiration to lose weight", but my heart isn't in it. What I really want is to be pregnant.

[TinaR]

I don't really know what to write to you ladies to help you feel any better, just want you to know you are all in my thoughts and prayers. I don't know why so many of us have this hard journey to motherhood - I am sure from what I have read from you all that you will make amazing mothers and I can't wait till I see those bfps from each of you.

to everyone xo

[starangelk]

SammyP - I soooo hear you. All I really want it to be pregnant too. I was just thinking yesterday how strange it is that my priorities have totally shifted. When we first decided to TTC I really wanted it but I was trying to be pretty casual like "if it happens fabulous, but if it doesn't straight away then that's okay too" - but since the m/c, I have realised just how much I want this and how everything else pales in comparison. I have my own business which I have always affectionately called "my baby" and I just can't get motivated in it at the moment and I would give it all away in a heartbeat if I had a choice to have a child with DH.

[Inanna]

It's time for a new thread lovely Women... You will find it HERE