Long Term TTC & Assisted Conception - May/June 2009

[juniper76]

Kay Kay, good luck on Tuesday. I've done 4 transfers and only the most recent of those has actually hurt. The others were just a bit uncomfortable (just due to the speculum). The last one the cervix wasn't in the right position or something? He had to use this other instrument to hold the cervix and that hurt like heck, but only for a few minutes. Unless your Dr says otherwise, you should be fine going back to work if you want to. I always take the day off (and the next day) because I tend to get stressed at work and I'd rather just go home and relax.

Emerald Star, glad to hear you can get started. I was in a buddy group of IVF first-timers on another site last year when I did my first cycle. About 2/3 of the group got a BFP first time, so it does happen. FX you are one of the lucky ones.

[springvalley]

Hi there ladies, hope all is well for you...
I have just been reading a few of your stories and thought i would say hi.
I am currently undergoing ICSI, it's our first time and am now on the TWW, we recently found out we have no good embies to freeze, and so if this lil one doesn't stick it's back to the drawing board.
A admire each and everyone of you who are going through any assisted conception, and i wish you all the very best of luck

[Krikkit]

I know I shouldn't have, but I did a HPT this morning - its been since Friday morning since my last dose of pregnyl 1000.

I got a

I cant get too upset, cause I know that I shouldnt have done it and I cant run off crying at work every 2 seconds, but this SUCKS! its only my 1st round, but I dunno how you all do it over and over again. The pressure to "perform" is massive, everyone around me knows about the IVF is counting on it working.

Has anyone heard of HPT's being wrong? I still did my dose of pregnyl afterwards, but I felt a bit strange doing it - almost like there is no point.

My hat is off to you all who continue on every month with persistance and patience - this is really hard.

[mitf]

Krikkit - when is your BT scheduled? I wouldn't give up hope till you have a confirmed BFN BT or AF arrives. My sister's AF was late on a natural cycle and she got a HPT BFN, then a couple of days later getting a HPT BFP. GL and FX that your body just isn't sending the right signals yet. Also, I know what you mean about the pressure. We decided not to tell most people we are doing IVF. When friends ask how we are going we just say we are saving for and thinking about moving to IVF in a few months so they stop asking.

[Krikkit]

Hi Mitf
My BT is scheduled for Monday the 13th.
It could still be early days, I am tired (exhausted actually) But I am just putting it down to the trauma of the EPU and x2 aneasthetic.

Our friends and family know and they know what part of the cylce we are upto, I think next cycle (if we need it) I may keep it to myself and pretend we are having a break for a month or waiting for the DR to "figure out what to do next" - that or gaffer tape my mouth shut!

[Persephone1]

Krikkit,

You're too early! POAS is so evil! I've still got everything crossed for you, and sending you

DH and I kept some things secret during our first IVF stim cycle, but still about a dozen people knew where we were at, and it is a lot of pressure. Don't be too hard on yourself, I know I have trouble keeping a secret, especially when IVF can be so consuming.

I have found that each time we've gone in for another FET, we've told less and less people. My mother can be particularly tiresome with all her questions and advice, so now I only tell her when we have 'news' to share - so far it's been to let her know that the FET didn't succeed, but she has no idea when the next one is, and won't be told until after the TWW. She was excrutiating during the stim cycle, and cared more about me getting pregnant (read: giving her grandchildren) than the fact that I had OHSS.

Don't get too down yet - even if this cycle doesn't succeed (touchwood, you're too early to know!), you will cope with it, because you've come this far and everyone in this thread is strong and resilient. And we'll be here to give you a big whenever you need it.

Now, stop poas and wait another week before getting worried!

[Krikkit]

persephone, Thank you.

Here I was thinking my mum was the only one driving me up the wall.

She continually refers to the non existant baby as her baby and is buying me more baby clothes that I have hangers.

I know it could be too early, my hubby called our clinic (with out me knowing!) - he was worried too and told them I POAS and it was negative, they said its too early and not to worry - I have to wait one more week.

I think next time around I will be keeping it all to myself and hubby and not sharing where we are upto on our journey.

Thank you all again, your all a huge inspiration!

[Persephone1]

There should be a permanent thread on BB to talk about our mothers. My mother booked an overseas holiday with a return date in October 09 because she wanted to be back in Australia 'when' the baby was born - this was all on the proviso that I got pregnant on our first cycle back in January, which I didn't.

[mitf]

Krikkit - it is definatelty too early. Your body has barely had a chance to register if it is pregnant. My fingers are still crossed for you and sending you lots of Sorry to hear you are exhausted. Try to stop thinking about it for a few days. Get DH to give you a nice massage and get a couple goods night sleep - (although I know how hard this can be with that TWW clock ticking at the back of your brain).

Krikkit / Seph - fortunately my mother isn't too bad and hasn't bought me any baby clothes /schedule her holiday around me. It is my siblings that I have to worry about! I was still coming to terms with my first IUI BFN and my brother was on my case making stupid comments and kept offering me wines, coffees etc at a family function. I deliberately had a camomile tea to keep him guessing!

[Persephone1]

Ooh, I did it, I created a New Thread: Mums of Wannabe Mums

[lilmisshavachat]

Girls.. Maybe you could try my strategy... I always tell my Mum that my BT is a few days later than it is so I'm not fielding any questions on that day but my lying is more so that I have time to personally drive to my Mum and Dad's place to give them the good news when it happens.. I had to ring my Mum today and tell her that AF arrived this morning and she was so sad for me that it broke my heart to have to tell her... Everyone at my work knows what i'm up to and when I broke down in tears this morning they respect the fact that I left work and why.. i just couldn't hide this.. I'm superbad at it.. Good luck ladies...

[tantee]

Hi Ladies,

I have been following this thread for quite a while. Everyone in here is so very supportive and I personally have found the experiences others have described have really helped in my journey so far.

So maybe I should introduce myself (and thank you for sharing your stories) . I am currently in my first cycle after having tried 5 mths clomid earlier this year (after 2years+ TTC naturally. I have mild PCOS, a long 30-50day natural cycle and one tube is blocked.

Today was day 10 of my stims and I have been OK, but have become very nauseaus in the last couple of days. I am due for my 2nd ultrasound tomorrow and am getting very nervous. My EPU if all goes well should be on Thurs/Fri. I had a scan last week as my 1st blood test indicated that my E2 levels were 4,000, although I had about 9 decent follies. I am very worried that EPU will be cancelled.
Has anyone else had experience with high estrogen levels, but without extreme number of follies and still gone through with EPU?

Wishing EVERYONE loads of

[jasminstar]

Hi girls,

I'm pretty new to the site too and really finding it encouraging, particularily the positive attitude of those of you who've been at this for so long. It's great to hear all the stories. In response to the last post I am also on my first IVF cycle. I am doing the down regulation cycle (I didn't find out until today that there are two different types; sounds like you're on the flare version, it's not so long and no difference in success rates according to what I've read). I've been on the syneral for 7 days now and my FS does not want me back in the clinic until Thursday week before I start FSH. It's a very long cycle they've planned out but I feel more proactive than when i was on the clomid so fingers crossed. Wishing you and everyone else luck too.

[Vira]

Hi Tantee ,Jasminestar & Springvalley- Welcome and good luck.
Krikkit- Don't torture yourself, I hope everything turns out well.
Mitf- My ET is also estimated around the same time as you may be a couple of days behind.
Persephone1-"Mums of Wannabe mums"-That was a good idea.
We always keep all our fertility treatment issues to ourselves. This is easy for us because the rest of our family lives abroad. But sometimes it is hard especially when things go wrong ,you feel it would be better if you had a shoulder to cry.
Emerald Star- My friend is 6 months pregnant after having her first IVF.
Kay Kay- Hope you have recovered from the flu and are feeling fit and well for tomorrow's ET.
Hi everyone else and good luck to all of you .

[Loops12]

WOW lots of us in here.

KayKay - I dont know much about cell division etc but what I have heard from others they do sound very good.
I know how you feel about being worried about the pain of the transfer etc - GL with it, is it today? Thinking of you x

Emerald Star - so happy for you that AF arrived - very exciting! And that you can join us. GL x I have friends (Kurby on BB) that have just recently become pg on 1st IVF try. So there is every chance the same could be for us.
Im at very similar stage to mitf - AF should arrive soon and im currenlty on the pill and Synarel - down reg.

Springvalley - hope you're going ok in TWW - not going crazy. All the best for a BFP.

Krikit - I hope everyone is right and its just too early - sounds like it, if you still have a week until you BT. GL on Monday

Seph - a good thread, well done. Hope you're hanging in there.

Tantee and Jaminster - Hi and welcome. Yes this really is a great place to be. Everyone is so kind and supportive. GL with your cycles

Hi Vira and everyone else.

AFM - still on pill and Synarel - down reg. Have an appointment tomorrow with nurse to go over the next steps etc and get more meds (injections etc). My EPU i think is on the 27th and then 4or 5 day transfer after that I believe. Find out more tomorrow I suppose

Thinking of all xo

[Emerald Star]

Hi guys,

Firstly, Juniper76 and Vira thanks for the positive statistics....good to hear that it CAN happen first go.

Welcome Springvalley, tantee and jasminstar....hope you find lots of support with all the girls here.

Mitf and Loops12 - I read up on your protocols and now i can keep up with your progress and understand it more...sorry before about the ignorance.

Kay Kay - how did you go today?

AFM - I started my Gonal F injections today and i go back on saturday for BT to see how i'm doing....i will keep you posted.

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Me 40
right tube removed
DH 42
Good count low motility
TTC #1 for 2 years

1x natural ectopic 2007
IUI #1 18 April 2009
IUI #2 19 May 2009
IVF / ICSI #1 July 2009

[Kay Kay]

Well I think you are all amazing...so supportive and caring of each other..its like the friends you want to have that completely understand everything that we are all going thru!

Anyways, I had 1 blastcyst transferred back to me today, as you all said...it didnt hurt! I actually said to the doctor "Is that it"...so much easier tha egg retrival...
Sydney IVF were fantastic, the nurses, and scientist, and doctor all super caring and very helpful. My Dr (who did the egg retrieval days ago) who is not my FS as just lovely...I would also rec her as well.

I had accupunture early this morning, before embryo transfer. My natropath (at Chatswood) came in on his day off as he said all the hard work we have done will not be complete without a "before and after" session of accupunture! So Ive had 2 lots of accupunture today...which I must admit certainly calmed me after hardly any sleep last night!

I told a "work friend" last night about today and you know what she said?
Dont get your hopes up I dont think IVF is very successful the 1st time!!!!! I couldnt belive it...as if anyone going through it dosnt become obsessed trying to read, gather information, chat online with Belly Belly friends, and of course talk to the Drs, Nurses and experts on IVF!!

Thanks for letting me vent, Congrats to everyone where ever you are in your attempts to have a child....theres no doubt about it...we are the stonger sex!!

Best Wishes and baby dust to all,

Kay Kay

[Persephone1]

KayKay, I'm glad your transfer went well today - sending you lots of Woohoo, you're in the TWW (or is it less because it was a blasty?).

And as for your work friend, I had two people tell me, after the first ET wasn't successful, that they weren't surprised because it would be 'too lucky' if the first was was successful. What a stupid thing to say! The chances don't increase the more you do it!

FX for you, let us know how you're going.

Oh, and hello to the newbies in here! Welcome!

Seph