Going to team midwifery 'reunion' this morning and a little nervous... - Pregnancy, Birth & Baby Forums ~ BellyBelly

~Leasha~ · #1 (**permalink**) July 14th, 2009, 06:29 AM

Eeeeeek, having a mini-freakout... We are going to a morning tea for our team midwifery reunion.

I want to go, well Shel really wants to go to show off Jazz, and won't go by herself so I want to go for Shel (lol, know what i mean? haha). But I'd be happy enough NOT going, well just some anxiety seeing the midwives who were present during my labour and Jazzy's birth. Also a bit of anger.

I dunno, just wanted to say it out loud. Shel doesn't really get it, and I'm not sure exactly how I feel, bit like Jazzy's birthday coming up, not sure how I feel, but I'm just wanting to get it out to people who understand my nervousness.

Macca79 · #2 (**permalink**) July 14th, 2009, 06:35 AM

I know how you feel. I had to go back to hospital last week for a bleed last week with bub 2 and the midwife who stood over me while trying to breastfeed DS and telling me I was jsut 'hormonal' while I cried was the one who attended me. Was really strange because she was so nice last week but a total b#$@* last year. I actually found it good in a way, she went from being this big bad person in my mind to just a person.

Going and seeing these ladies might even help bring you some closure or peace possibily. It might even be worth letting them know that the birth was very hard for you and you have had to deal with a lot of issues relating to it.

Either way it is important you do what you feel is best for you. If you think it will be something that will be traumatic then maybe give it a miss or get Shell to stay with you the whole time, what ever will help.

Hope things work out what ever happens, offering you lots of

.

Cassius2 · #3 (**permalink**) July 22nd, 2009, 03:32 PM

as long as you have Shel close by (how awesome that she is so proud as punch to show of Jazz) i reckon it could bring some closure. at least you can look on these people with a whole lot less vulnerability - being in labour and dealing with people is a whole other ball game IYKWIM...

if it were me, i would jump at the chance. i feel the need to have some 'closure' and show them that despite them i am strong ITMS...

~Leasha~ · #4 (**permalink**) July 22nd, 2009, 03:40 PM

it went ok

We didnt stay long and well there was a CHN who had me grinning from ear to ear. They weighed my chubbaloomba and a new CHN asked me how she was and how she was eating, and I said "yeah, good, still breastfed" and she did this kind of squeal and said "ohhhhhhhh you've given her the best start to life" and got me some info on bfing into toddlerhood, and then she told the other CHN (who knew because she is my CHN, and the best one ever lol)...

Anyway, that was kind of a big thing for me as it was the first time someone who didn't know I had a c/s told me I had given her the best start to life, that has always meant birth to me, and I guess it just made me really happy that Jazzy's birth didn't even factor into it.

So yeah, I am ok. Was very nervous, and still didn't stay long but yeah I focused on the positives, and not the negatives. My midwives were there, and I guess I blocked them out because I didn't even register really.

It helped that I had a friend who was also there (Kel

) who was in the the midwife team too who probably didn't know it but she helped to take my mind off it.

Marlene · #5 (**permalink**) July 22nd, 2009, 03:55 PM

I am so happy that things went well for you today.

I am grinning from ear to ear picturing you grinning from ear to ear, LOL.

~Kaz~ · #6 (**permalink**) July 22nd, 2009, 03:58 PM

I'm glad things went well Leasha. I think you're very brave and you HAVE given Jaz the best start to life!