Is it terrible that I'm expecting a BFP? I really hope not. This cycle has been so much more positive and 'present' than the others - I feel like I just 'know' that this is the one. I have noticed every twinge (which isn't unusual, having TTC for three years, you tend to notice everything), but I feel a 'presence' is there. I know that sounds daggy and I also know that in a week's time I could look back on this post and feel really stupid. But I also know that I can't say this stuff to
DH because he tells me to 'stop thinking about it' which is just so helpful!
So, last night I was laying in bed and noticing everything, as usual. I could feel twinges and stabbing sensations about halfway between my belly button and my groin - sort of where my pantyline is. It could mean nothing, but it could mean
something.
Anyway, even if I might have it in my head that this is
THE ONE, I also haven't got my hopes up. I feel like this cycle is different because I'm seeing the acupuncturist and taking aspirin and Wild Yam, so I think I've just convinced myself that this just has to be
THE ONE because I don't know what else I need to do to get that BFP. I've tried everything now!
I know someone else said on here the other day that the TWW is hard because it's so hopeful and difficult at the same time - I have felt emotional in the last week, and felt quite teary after the ET because the enormity of what might happen hits me in the face - I might get a BFP, or I might get a BFN, or I might get a ****y Almost BFP that becomes a BFN. And again, telling
DH this gets the usual 'don't think about it' response. I know he does this because he has to contain his emotions in order to deal with it as well.
Sorry, I'm really just procrastinating from the study. Should get this essay done by tomorrow evening, so better get cracking.
Hope you all have a nice weekend girls, and thanks so much for your support - in case I don't say it next week, I've really appreciated coming on here and offloading and sharing our journeys together. All my other TWWs have been shared with
DH - but you know how that conversation goes!
Seph