***Warning - Pregnancy talk***
Yes Tegam, finally getting most of it off of my chest helped in a HUGE way. Sometimes it seems easier just to gracefully nod my head and patiently accept all of the crap being flung my way, but pregnant or not, the same Shari still exists inside and a part of me just wants to grab her by the shoulders and shake some sense into her while sticking up for myself.
There's just no winning on this one so I have decided to follow both BG's advice and my heart and just remove myself gently for awhile. I still haven't seen her and each phone call I've received since my original post has continued along the same way as before: not one "how are you?", "what are you up to?", nothing. Just a "hello" from me and then listening to her launch into whatever rampage she's on at the moment. It's actually turned into a bit of a joke between DP and I: how many phone calls will it take before/if she asks me how I'm doing. Currently up to 14 at the moment.
I've essentially given up for the time being and am going to focus on my first pregnancy and sharing updates, etc with those around me who can even bother to feign interest and support. When I calmed down somewhat after my post and then reading BG's response, I bought a fetal doppler online which came in the mail yesterday so I've been listening to the Sprout's heartbeat when I've needed a lift. I can't continue to let her smudge what should be the happiest time of my life.
Thank you again for your great advice ladies
- it definitely helped me to put things in perspective and reinforced to me what I guess I knew somewhere deep down.
Shari xo