Sara: I am so sorry, hon. I truly wished that this was your time for a miracle.
Did you get your BT result yet?
Julie: Everyone I missed: 
AFM, not great news today;
DH told me last night that he wants to take a break and pretty much that he just doesn?t want to hear about it (donors or anything affiliated with TTC) anymore. I was talking to my mum about it last night (God bless her) and have decided that if he isn?t willing to continue trying and move on to a donor egg/embryo then I?m probably going to go ahead and do it on my own without him. The fact that he'd rather see me keep going through the pain of IVF and failure after failure and will now not even consider moving onto something else has infuriated me. I suppose this has all been coming for a long time; we've been TTC for 4 1/2 years now and he's been on a slippery slope for the last year or so. I pray that he ups his game (he's only 28 so I keep praying that he'll grow up SOON) between now and when he gets home (he's still away for almost another three weeks), otherwise I may be moving forward by myself. He's always wanted children, but has never been involved in the treatment process, I've been left to handle that aspect virtually on my own. I can count on my right hand the number of times he's been to an appointment with me in more than four years, and on no fingers the number of articles, websites, etc. that he's read or researched, plus the number of people he's suggested we talk to. Quite frankly, my
DH's contribution to IVF has been the occasional orgasm and a blood test. Not a bad day's work if I do say so myself. Truth be told, I just feel sad for him that he can't see the forest for the trees. Freakin' men...
