[Baby Dreamtime]

Hi ladies,
I just wanted to say a very big thank you for starting this thread. I must admit half way through I was getting a bit pi**ed thinking 'some of you are so lucky not to struggle with TTC, how can you know' but I have really had a good think about it and it has changed my perspective on a few things. For starters I am coming up to 4.5 years TTC, have been of late very bitter and twisted and struggling to over come what is now my number one obsession. Trying to chill and not let it control my life. This has been very difficult. At the same time all this has been going on, along with having already done 3 cycles this year all with a BFN, my SIL fell pregnant first month trying, only to announce she is having triplets. I was/am devastated and have had a really hard time getting used to this, I am so jealous and angry and feel it is so unfair. BUT...I am trying to deal with it and realise it is nothing to do with me and that for her, this is really the biggest of miracles. My only saving grace is that (I hope) I have never made her feel bad and have always been super positive when speaking with her. And she has been so kind not to talk about it over much and sort of avoid the topic, I know she is doing this to save my feelings. I guess what I am saying is that I should be really thankful she is also taking my feelings into consideration, and in this I am really lucky, it could have been so much worse.

Thanks again for putting a different perspective forward. xx