oh hollye- big hugs hun, i know the feeling.......
I remember reading in our belly buddies group when you went off to hossy due to the pe and all the problems u were having....i felt so badly for you, and disappointed for you too when you ended up being induced only to have to have a c section.
I was so happy that mia was here safe and healthy, i was worried that u might have some negativity but you surprised me with how well i "thought" you took it all.
why did they induce? probably because of the high bp, mine was all over the place and was the "medical reason given for my induction. if i recall correctly an epidural can lower bp.
i am guessing here but i think that cos of mias heart rate dropping they would have wanted to get her out asap.
there are alot of positives to think of too, your water broke on its own, you did actually dialate to 7cm (well done! i only got to 4!) and the best bit Mia herself.
when i was having a really hard time with m experience i posted on here, one of the fantastic ladies suggested focusing on the positives of the experience, which is what i have done, and it has helped, but
i keep asking myself, will i know better next time? would i, could i , should i have done things differently??? and i will never know...
hugs again sweet, if u need to talk let me know.
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