Hi Rae,
I am sorry you're having a difficult time. I recently wasn't sure whether I should start an IVF cycle as my FSH was 9.7 - my FS does IVF cycles up to a FSH of 11 and recommended I start.
I have now heard from other women who had succesful cycles with an FSH of up to 14 and was also told by the IVF nurse that while the FSH is an indicator it's in no way foolproof, she also quoted a successful cycle from a women who had an FSh of 14 and said some women with really good FSH levels don't have many follicles/eggs etc.
In my understand a high FSH means that you may not have many eggs. Found some info here
Day 3 FSH Fertility Test
In any case if your not sure abotu the advice from you FS I would go to someone else to get a second opinion.
Good luck
Sara